Quick Take: Mic Check Please – My “Close-Up” on Back Porch

I am always telling my students to get ready for their close-up which can happen unexpectedly at any time.   When my “close-up” came late last week, I, of course, wasn’t quite ready.   

A few days ago, I received a note from the publisher of an article I wrote about hip hop and domestic violence over a year ago saying that someone from an internet radio show wanted to interview me.

That “someone” turned out to be two someones, Dave and Bob, from Utah, hosts of the show Back Porch with Dave and Bob.   

As soon as I received the news, my insecurities started to get the best of me.   The “who am I’s” started to kick in.  Who am I  to be an “expert” on any subject?   Who am I to speak on the issues affecting women as it relates to hip hop?  Who am I to think that anyone would really listen to what I have to say?   

Before I drove myself completely crazy, I knew I needed to find a way to  get my mental act together.  But how? 

I remembered a saying from the great warrior Joan of Arc which I happen to have heard of from the great porn star Jenna Jameson, a guest on my favorite show, LA Ink.  Dear Jenna, looking more like Posh Spice’s older sister on crack  than the woman who used to deliver the sexy like Domino’s delivers pizza, stopped by the tattoo shop featured on the show to get the time-honored saying emblazoned across her bony shoulders.

“I am not afraid…I was born to do this.”

When I heard and when I saw it — the first part on one shoulder and the second part on the other – I knew it was going to be my mantra for years to come.

“I am not afraid…I was born to do this.”

The day of reckoning arrived, and of course, my voice was becoming scratchy.  And I had teach.   And my class ended just two hours before I had to go on.   And it takes me about an hour to get home.   But before going home ,I had to stop at Whole Foods to get something to eat because, as usual, my refrigerator was empty.   And of course the line in the store was long and slow.   And the subway was late.   And it started to rain — heavily — as I was walking the 10 blocks home. 

I arrived home, wet and exhausted , just 7 minutes before I was supposed to call into the radio show.   I took my precious few minutes to decompress and fix myself a cup of hot water with lemon and honey.

“I am not afraid…I was born to do this.”

The interview went smoothly.   Bob and Dave were wonderful hosts and asked great questions.   And I think I impressed them (and myself) as well.

Watch out Ms. Gayle King, my favorite radio show host from XM Satellite’s “Oprah and Friends”, I’m on your tail.

Let’s be real;  I’m not even close.

A girl can dream can’t she.    And I do believe that dreams come true.

“I am not afraid…I was born to do this.”


One thought on “Quick Take: Mic Check Please – My “Close-Up” on Back Porch

  1. The full quote by Joan of Arc was actually: “I do not fear the soldiers, for my road is made open to me; and if the soldiers come, I have God, my Lord, who will know how to clear the route that leads to messire the Dauphin. It was for this that I was born!”
    To learn more about Joan of Arc try Joan of Arc – MaidofHeaven.com

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